Secret Confessions - Maximum Ride Unofficial Community2024-03-28T22:01:30Zhttp://flockforum.ning.com/forum/topics/secret-confessions?feed=yes&xn_auth=noSometimes, I remember posting…tag:flockforum.ning.com,2013-09-07:2971573:Comment:1215802013-09-07T06:06:20.986ZFatehttp://flockforum.ning.com/profile/Fate
<p>Sometimes, I remember posting this and I just feel really unnerved.</p>
<p>Sometimes, I remember posting this and I just feel really unnerved.</p> Oh christ Fate. :V
First I…tag:flockforum.ning.com,2013-04-29:2971573:Comment:1214502013-04-29T02:49:13.223ZXuuthttp://flockforum.ning.com/profile/Xuut
<p>Oh christ Fate. :V </p>
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<p>First I really hope that my phone convo with you didn't make you feel that way. I tried to avoid questions like "how was your cancer?", "are you okay?" because those seemed like really fucking stupid questions that you probably get asked a billion times. And being upset about school is completely normal. It just kinda sucks to feel left behind. </p>
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<p>I think just need to straight up tell people this because I don't think they will know until you…</p>
<p>Oh christ Fate. :V </p>
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<p>First I really hope that my phone convo with you didn't make you feel that way. I tried to avoid questions like "how was your cancer?", "are you okay?" because those seemed like really fucking stupid questions that you probably get asked a billion times. And being upset about school is completely normal. It just kinda sucks to feel left behind. </p>
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<p>I think just need to straight up tell people this because I don't think they will know until you tell them...</p> 1.) Yes sometimes your "my li…tag:flockforum.ning.com,2013-04-29:2971573:Comment:1214492013-04-29T02:45:49.714ZXuuthttp://flockforum.ning.com/profile/Xuut
<p>1.) Yes sometimes your "my life sucks" isn't usually something that some people think is worthy of complaining about because I guarantee that someone else is having a shittier time. Doesn't mean you can't complain though. Sometimes everything just fucking sucks and you want to tell someone. I've definitely had a bunch of those moments and hell, I probably over dramatized some stuff to make it sound worse. It happens. And it's perfectly legit. I mean it's not like you're complaining about how…</p>
<p>1.) Yes sometimes your "my life sucks" isn't usually something that some people think is worthy of complaining about because I guarantee that someone else is having a shittier time. Doesn't mean you can't complain though. Sometimes everything just fucking sucks and you want to tell someone. I've definitely had a bunch of those moments and hell, I probably over dramatized some stuff to make it sound worse. It happens. And it's perfectly legit. I mean it's not like you're complaining about how your parents are making you pay your own car insurance <span style="text-decoration: line-through;">I hope.</span></p>
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<p>2.) Complain to me. :) Don't worry I won't find you annoying.</p>
<p></p> Makes perfect sense to me.
Ti…tag:flockforum.ning.com,2013-04-26:2971573:Comment:1213502013-04-26T03:10:58.265ZEndOfTheEarthhttp://flockforum.ning.com/profile/EndOfTheEarth
<p>Makes perfect sense to me.</p>
<p>Time to set some rules with them?</p>
<p>Makes perfect sense to me.</p>
<p>Time to set some rules with them?</p> I am so sick of hearing about…tag:flockforum.ning.com,2013-04-26:2971573:Comment:1212532013-04-26T01:11:28.532ZFatehttp://flockforum.ning.com/profile/Fate
<p>I am so sick of hearing about how I almost died, about how I went through hell and back, about how I'm a miracle. I get it. I know things were bad in the beginning. But I haven't been through hell and back. I don't remember the rough stuff and I'm not the one who suffered. It was hard on my family, not on me. My hell was when I lost my mom and nothing will top that. And I'm not a miracle. I'm a nineteen year old college kid who just wants to be able to go back to school in the…</p>
<p>I am so sick of hearing about how I almost died, about how I went through hell and back, about how I'm a miracle. I get it. I know things were bad in the beginning. But I haven't been through hell and back. I don't remember the rough stuff and I'm not the one who suffered. It was hard on my family, not on me. My hell was when I lost my mom and nothing will top that. And I'm not a miracle. I'm a nineteen year old college kid who just wants to be able to go back to school in the fall.</p>
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<p>I hate that I have to withdraw from my classes. I wish I was in the dorm with GermanSam stressing about finals. I wish that all this crap hadn't happened. Not because it was hard on me, but because it screwed up my school so badly. I know that sounds stupid, but it's how I feel.</p>
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<p>Honestly, the worst thing that's happened since I went into the hospital wasn't to me. There was a car accident and I lost two friends. I was pretty close to one of them and the other was his girlfriend. They were both amazing people and I miss them frequently. And because I was in the hospital, everyone kept it from me until a few days after the funeral. That hurt so freaking much. And I understand why they hid it, but I could have handled it. With all the crap I've been through in my life, I just don't understand why they didn't think I could.</p>
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<p>And then there's the way people are treating me. I'm not made of glass. I know I'm not super strong, but damn it, I can get my own food and put away my dishes and walk around my high school theater and I'm not going to drop dead. Gah. And everyone has all these ridiculous questions. "Can you eat real food?" "Can you see that?" "Can you walk?" Yes. I know there was a time I couldn't do these things, but I don't think I'd be home now if I still couldn't.</p>
<p>I love my family, but they're smothering me. And I love my friends, but the ones who weren't with me from the beginning are acting all weird.</p>
<p>I just want my life back. Is that too much to ask?</p>
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<p></p> You're allowed to cry. You're…tag:flockforum.ning.com,2013-04-25:2971573:Comment:1214462013-04-25T03:01:24.001ZEndOfTheEarthhttp://flockforum.ning.com/profile/EndOfTheEarth
<p>You're allowed to cry. You're also allowed to allow yourself to stop crying. At your leisure. Sorry to hear that things are going poorly for you.</p>
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<blockquote><p><span>Plus, I'm really quite dumb because I got way too attached to someone and I was burned.</span></p>
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<p><span>I am increasingly led to believe that this is a normal, unfortunate part of the Human Experience. You're not dumb at all.</span></p>
<p>You're allowed to cry. You're also allowed to allow yourself to stop crying. At your leisure. Sorry to hear that things are going poorly for you.</p>
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<blockquote><p><span>Plus, I'm really quite dumb because I got way too attached to someone and I was burned.</span></p>
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<p><span>I am increasingly led to believe that this is a normal, unfortunate part of the Human Experience. You're not dumb at all.</span></p> I really hate complaining bec…tag:flockforum.ning.com,2013-04-25:2971573:Comment:1212512013-04-25T02:00:37.656ZMusicInTheWindhttp://flockforum.ning.com/profile/MusicInTheWind
<p>I really hate complaining because I have nothing to actually be upset about it but ugh.</p>
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<p>I'm just so frustrated with the direction my life is going. I feel so goddamn worthless about 100% of the time. I get sad about the stupidest things and when I complain to people, I can tell they're frustrated with me. Like, I'm sorry but I don't know what's wrong with me. I have so many friends on the internet that I can complain to but I don't wanna seem needy. I know it's just a phase…</p>
<p>I really hate complaining because I have nothing to actually be upset about it but ugh.</p>
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<p>I'm just so frustrated with the direction my life is going. I feel so goddamn worthless about 100% of the time. I get sad about the stupidest things and when I complain to people, I can tell they're frustrated with me. Like, I'm sorry but I don't know what's wrong with me. I have so many friends on the internet that I can complain to but I don't wanna seem needy. I know it's just a phase but I wish people would stop telling me that. Plus, I'm really quite dumb because I got way too attached to someone and I was burned. It was probably the worst thing that's happened to me and I still cry about it. I just wanna stop crying for once.</p>
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<p><span style="text-decoration: line-through;">ugh this is terrible. i'm so sorry</span></p> My brain thinks 'worst case s…tag:flockforum.ning.com,2013-02-16:2971573:Comment:1205562013-02-16T09:03:34.889ZSecret Confessorhttp://flockforum.ning.com/profile/i_love_you_person_who_is_reading_this_link
<p>My brain thinks 'worst case scenario' all the time. That way, when it's not it, I can handle whatever it really is.</p>
<p>But something feels different this time. Idk. Something feels...correct and I just... I don't know what to do. I'm going to the doctor soon, so we'll see.</p>
<p>But guys...</p>
<p>What if I have cancer?</p>
<p>My brain thinks 'worst case scenario' all the time. That way, when it's not it, I can handle whatever it really is.</p>
<p>But something feels different this time. Idk. Something feels...correct and I just... I don't know what to do. I'm going to the doctor soon, so we'll see.</p>
<p>But guys...</p>
<p>What if I have cancer?</p> Maybe just go out on a few da…tag:flockforum.ning.com,2013-01-26:2971573:Comment:1204432013-01-26T07:48:50.633ZFatehttp://flockforum.ning.com/profile/Fate
<p>Maybe just go out on a few dates and see where things lead? <span style="text-decoration: line-through;">I assume you're old enough to go out on actual dates, but if I'm wrong, then my advice is rather useless.</span></p>
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<p>Trusting people is really hard, especially if you've been burned in the past. Starting small is always good and don't ever worry about being afraid to trust. It's natural.</p>
<p>Good luck.</p>
<p>Maybe just go out on a few dates and see where things lead? <span style="text-decoration: line-through;">I assume you're old enough to go out on actual dates, but if I'm wrong, then my advice is rather useless.</span></p>
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<p>Trusting people is really hard, especially if you've been burned in the past. Starting small is always good and don't ever worry about being afraid to trust. It's natural.</p>
<p>Good luck.</p> So basically, I really like t…tag:flockforum.ning.com,2013-01-26:2971573:Comment:1203432013-01-26T05:14:48.729ZSecret Confessorhttp://flockforum.ning.com/profile/i_love_you_person_who_is_reading_this_link
<p>So basically, I really like this guy and he's amazing to talk and he thinks I'm pretty and wonderful. But I have doubts. I don't think it's like true love. We've only known each other for a short amount of time but then again, I feel like I can truly tell him anything and he'd understand. I trust him more than I thought I could ever trust a guy. And I really wanna just be with him but yet again, I run into the same problem. What if he's just faking his interest in me? How do I know? Am I…</p>
<p>So basically, I really like this guy and he's amazing to talk and he thinks I'm pretty and wonderful. But I have doubts. I don't think it's like true love. We've only known each other for a short amount of time but then again, I feel like I can truly tell him anything and he'd understand. I trust him more than I thought I could ever trust a guy. And I really wanna just be with him but yet again, I run into the same problem. What if he's just faking his interest in me? How do I know? Am I just too paranoid to even get involved with another person?</p>