Secret Confessions

[Doomy]

[Edited Because I Fracking Can]

Welcome to the Secret Confessions thread. Beyond the pure anonymity of the internet, there lies a certain level of understanding behind all the accounts here on FF. The SC account carries burden of allowing the user to give a candid, private confession with (hopefully) understanding feedback. The SC thread is for other posters to give kind and/or helpful advice, words of empathy, or a secret of their own (under the SC name or not).

This account is a group account, and EVERYONE needs to treat it respectfully. By posting under the Secret Confessor, you are pledging to refrain from hate mail, "finger-pointing", insulting and being a jerkface. By posting in the SC thread, you are pledging to keep the comments respectful. This has not yet been a problem, but it's nice to have written down "just in case".

If you would like to use the SC account for ANY reason beside posting in this thread, please PM me- even if it's under the SC name (this is not to exert authority, but to maintain order over a very accessible account).

Thank you!


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[nathan_p]

I'm not super feminine in the way that Western society proscribes, even though I have a female body. Some days I like to wear skirts and be all soft and girly, but... more of the time I'm plaid shirts, jeans, holding the door for girls, cursing, all that.

The part that has me most confused is that... liking girls feels like the 'norm' to me -- being attracted to men feels like it's a homosexual attraction.

So I'm stuck somewhere in between butch and femme, somewhere between social man and social woman, and man, I am so confused by myself I don't even.

[Fate]

Not all girls are super feminine. I'm rather tomboyish and felt horribly awkward in the dress I wore to homecoming. One of my best friends has been caught in a dress once. Some girls are more...guyish. I'd rather hang around a group of guys than a group of girly girls.

For some people, that's normal. Maybe you aren't bi? Maybe you're completely lesbian?

It's alright to be confused. You're still young. Sometimes I forget that you're only a year older than me. Maybe you're forgetting this too?

[nathan_p]

>.> I'm pretty incredibly butchy that way, but I do have my "wear a fuckin skirt like yeah, makeup like yeah" days.

I really have no idea -- it seems like I'm attracted to people either way, but I absorbed the worldview that guys have, not the one that girls have: likin' girls is cool, having the hots for dudes is gay.

<.> That's always possible.

[Fate]

If I'm not wearing pants, I feel naked. Even if it's 120 degrees Fahrenheit outside, I need to be in pants.

I...can't help you. I'm very rarely physically attracted to people and it's just about as rare for me to be emotionally attracted to someone.

Most teenagers are very confused at some point or another in their life. It's pretty normal. Don't worry about it too much.

[Secret Confessor]

He knows me too well.

"Yep, right on schedule."

One month. I've only had one relationship that's ever lasted longer, and it ripped me to shreds. Is he right? Is this my 'schedule'? And why the fuck do I feel so unexplainably uncomfortable with a guy who is perfect?

[nathan_p]

No one's perfect, he's probably got a third arm.

vOv He was probably just being flippant.

[Secret Confessor]

Actually you're right, I just remembered. But it's worse than a third arm; he loves country music.

[Fate]

...*loves country music*...

[Secret Confessor]

...

B-but... "you can take a ride on my big green tractor"? HOW DO YOU EXPLAIN THAT?

[Fate]

...you don't. I love /older/ country. Trisha Yearwood, Tanya Tucker, Shania Twain, etc.

[Secret Confessor]

*sigh of relief* Yeah, old stuff is fine. Not entirely a fan, but it's not a fatal flaw.

But the boy likes the new stuff. And it's bad. I'm trying to convert him though. Thank God he's open-minded.

[Fate]

If it isn't comfortable, perhaps it's not meant to be? Of course, if it's awkward, but you're happy, that's a whole other situation.