Welcome to the Secret Confessions thread. Beyond the pure anonymity of the internet, there lies a certain level of understanding behind all the accounts here on FF. The SC account carries burden of allowing the user to give a candid, private confession with (hopefully) understanding feedback. The SC thread is for other posters to give kind and/or helpful advice, words of empathy, or a secret of their own (under the SC name or not).
This account is a group account, and EVERYONE needs to treat it respectfully. By posting under the Secret Confessor, you are pledging to refrain from hate mail, "finger-pointing", insulting and being a jerkface. By posting in the SC thread, you are pledging to keep the comments respectful. This has not yet been a problem, but it's nice to have written down "just in case".
If you would like to use the SC account for ANY reason beside posting in this thread, please PM me- even if it's under the SC name (this is not to exert authority, but to maintain order over a very accessible account).
I tried to be happy and I failed. I can't do it. I just end up looking like a fool. Maybe I should just list my flaws.
I'm rude
I'm unsympathic
I'm a jerk
I hate myself
I keep wanting to cut
I keep wanting to die
I'm losing my friends
I almost want to lose my friends
I play the victim role
I'm stupid
I try too hard
I'm fake
I don't care anymore
I have no feelings
My dad made a joke about how I don't have a boyfriend.
Because I'm supposedly fat.
If I lived in any other family, socialized with any other group, I'd be appreciated. A size 4 is not fat. A 29 on the ACT when I was sick is not stupid. And I do have a boyfriend, dad. I actually had to /choose/ between two guys who like me. Because guys like me. Because I'm an attractive, lovely young girl. Screw you, man.