Secret Confessions

[Doomy]

[Edited Because I Fracking Can]

Welcome to the Secret Confessions thread. Beyond the pure anonymity of the internet, there lies a certain level of understanding behind all the accounts here on FF. The SC account carries burden of allowing the user to give a candid, private confession with (hopefully) understanding feedback. The SC thread is for other posters to give kind and/or helpful advice, words of empathy, or a secret of their own (under the SC name or not).

This account is a group account, and EVERYONE needs to treat it respectfully. By posting under the Secret Confessor, you are pledging to refrain from hate mail, "finger-pointing", insulting and being a jerkface. By posting in the SC thread, you are pledging to keep the comments respectful. This has not yet been a problem, but it's nice to have written down "just in case".

If you would like to use the SC account for ANY reason beside posting in this thread, please PM me- even if it's under the SC name (this is not to exert authority, but to maintain order over a very accessible account).

Thank you!


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[RantingSidekick]

STOP TALKING LIKE THAT. Please.

It's the summer, everyone is drifting, because of weird schedules.

We always want to listen to you, don't ever think that we don't care.
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I'll admit, I don't know you as well as I should. Chat with me, I'd love to hear you talk. C:
-hugs forever-

[Throne_Spaz]

Thats how I feel sometimes. I don't know anyone on here really well....

[RantingSidekick]

Um, you too.

You need to talk to me.

I need to love you more. :D

[Megan (Fishy)]

We are never too busy to help you out if you need it. Just talk to anyone. You can PM me anytime, and I'm sure everyone else will say the same. We want to help you, and you're more than worth it. It DOES matter, don't say that.

*hugs again* If you want to talk, please PM me. I'll always have time for all of you.

@Throne - Same applies to you. I don't know either of you as well as I should, but we can always change that.

[MusicInTheWind]

I just feel you guys wouldn't have the time. I'd basically disagree with everything you'd say and nobody has time for that. Nobody gets anywhere with me. I'm not worth all the trouble it would cause. I really don't want to cause any trouble for any of you. You guys don't deserve to go through something like that.

[Megan (Fishy)]

You are worth any trouble it could ever cause. Tell yourself this until you believe it.

And really now. We WANT you to talk to us. Any trouble it could ever cause us to try to help you is minuscule in comparison to what seeing you so upset is.

[MusicInTheWind]

That's a bit impossible...

It doesn't really matter. I'm just hoping everybody will forget about this soon so I don't have to explain anything....

[Megan (Fishy)]

It does too matter. *won't forget* Please explain. If not to me, than to someone you're more comfortable with. I know you don't know me that well so that's fine. Just talk to somebody. We're always here for you, 'kay?

[MusicInTheWind]

Okay...

Thanks everyone. I really appreciate it. It might not seem like I appreciate it but I really do...

[RantingSidekick]

C:
-hugs-

[Secret Confessor]

I've been depressed before. All the time. Nearly every night, it's all I can do to keep from going back to my days of self-injury.

There's something different about this summer. Suicidal thoughts. But really, I just don't have anything to live for. I've given up on my dreams, because I know it won't happen. There will always be someone better, or more fitting (literally, because my body shape is all wrong even after I lost all of the weight) for any role I want.

I'm not stupid, I know that people would be sad if I died, because death is sad. And right now, that's what I live for. But the thing is, I don't think that anyone I know's life would be impacted for the worse if I had never been born. In fact, I'm quite sure that several people would be better off, as I am just a hurricane destroying everything in my path.

I know I need counseling, but there's no way. I would tell my parents and then I would be grounded for just trying to get attention. I know that's what would happen. And truthfully, my only mission in life currently is to get away from them, and not tell them how I feel. I tried that before, and it didn't turn out well.

So I'm stuck not wanting to hurt people if I die and not wanting to live. Lovely.

[RantingSidekick]

You. Are. Beautiful.
Keep your dreams, work for them. I'm sure you're better than you think, and much better than others who want it.

If I knew who you were, I would write you a list of the ways you have impacted my life for the better.

I'm so so sorry that you think talking to your parents won't work. A school counselor possibly, when the year starts? Or any of us, though we are by no means professional. But we do care. A lot.

Just... -hugs and tea- Feel free to PM/IM me at any time, doll.