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Another confession, one that I've been holding off telling because it really is confessing something horrible that I'm doing:
I know that he's head-over-heels in love with me. I don't need him to be, I could let him go, cut him off and save him the pain that I know I'm causing him. But I don't. I don't because I love the how much he needs me. I love having this power over him.
And I don't feel so bad about it, which is the worst part of all.
*hugs* Sorry it took me so long torespond to this, but I knew I couldn't do it on my account, because I myself am in a simialr situation and he has an account on here and the day I repond to this would totally be the day after months on end he decided to check up on here, because that's my terrible luck.
*hugs again* It's hard to let them go, isn't it? Like, I know he's in love with me, but I don't feel the same. He's just a friend, but I need him. He makes me laugh, but I know that keeping him around is hurting him, and I feel bad, especially since I've been on his side of this before and I know how much it sucks. *sigh* I don't get what he sees in me.
*hugs* You obviously feel bad on some level, or else you wouldn't have posted, no? Just... we're here for you. Don't forget.
I was told last evening that a good friend of mine had died. Hit by a car. He was 14.
And somehow it's right for all the squees on MX to cry and sob over one of their characters simply leaving, while I'm expected to continue to attend classes without batting an eye.
*hugs and offers tea* The words, 'I'm sorry,' don't cut it here, and I know that, probably more than most people should. 'He's in a better place,' doesn't do much good either, especially if you aren't religious. There are a million things we're told to tell someone when someones dies, all of them are meaningless to you right now. *just...hugs* I'm here if you need someone to cry to, to bitch to, to talk to and trust me, if you were close you'll be doing all of those. *hugs forever*
Recently, my brother went through the same thing. A friend of his was hit by car in front of her mom and the school bus. She was way too young to die. Your friend was too.
I'm so late, replying to this, but...just wanted you to know you're not alone.