Welcome to the Secret Confessions thread. Beyond the pure anonymity of the internet, there lies a certain level of understanding behind all the accounts here on FF. The SC account carries burden of allowing the user to give a candid, private confession with (hopefully) understanding feedback. The SC thread is for other posters to give kind and/or helpful advice, words of empathy, or a secret of their own (under the SC name or not).
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1) My friend is trying to set me up with a girl XD but she's such a sexy butch lesbian, it won't take long for me to give in >.>
2) I love my friends. I really do, they're wonderful. But it's sometimes hard to be unguarded around them. It's like... I can't be totally vulnerable, because they're not exactly the NICEST of people. I love them, but they're occasionally hard to LIKE. Now that I've met a new, somewhat darker, crowd of friends, I see what I've been missing out and what really good friendship is like. And it's getting harder and harder for me to separate my lives like this. There's my "Nice Girl" group and my "Fun Girl" group. And by "nice", I mean "nice on the outside, almost petty on the inside". And by "fun" I mean... well, outrageous, and spontaneous. I'm a bit quirky, I know that. I have my things, and it's hard for me to reform myself just because that's what my core group wants me to do. But when I'm with some of my other friends, it's a lot easier to be a little crazier and not feel so judged. I'm not dangerous, just... a bit different. I hate to use the word "weird", because every other girl wants to be "weird" because they don't belong in any subgroup. I'm normal, with my quirks like everyone. I'm just not as good at hiding it. But now, I'm sick of feeling like I have to.
That was long :/ I just needed a rant. There wasn't much of a point to that post.
2) Here we have an interesting paradox found among you ladies, a force for individualism countered by a force to conform for the sake of being included... my advice, don't base your life around your non-romantic friends, once you hit college you won't see that many of them ever again.
Figure out what you want and how far you're willing to go for it, is my advice. I'd say talk to him, but as I probably wouldn't, I know that's BS advice.