Secret Confessions

[Doomy]

[Edited Because I Fracking Can]

Welcome to the Secret Confessions thread. Beyond the pure anonymity of the internet, there lies a certain level of understanding behind all the accounts here on FF. The SC account carries burden of allowing the user to give a candid, private confession with (hopefully) understanding feedback. The SC thread is for other posters to give kind and/or helpful advice, words of empathy, or a secret of their own (under the SC name or not).

This account is a group account, and EVERYONE needs to treat it respectfully. By posting under the Secret Confessor, you are pledging to refrain from hate mail, "finger-pointing", insulting and being a jerkface. By posting in the SC thread, you are pledging to keep the comments respectful. This has not yet been a problem, but it's nice to have written down "just in case".

If you would like to use the SC account for ANY reason beside posting in this thread, please PM me- even if it's under the SC name (this is not to exert authority, but to maintain order over a very accessible account).

Thank you!


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[EndOfTheEarth]

Well, not the news I wanted to receive this afternoon.

My mother and younger sister were in the duck boat that sank after suffering a collision barge on the Delaware. Fortunately both are alright. My younger sister got out of the water first, and my mother is in fact visible in this clip shot by a FOX helicopter, roughly 20 seconds in.

http://www.myfoxphilly.com/dpp/news/local_news/boat-accident-in-del...

Needless to say, I'm a bit shaken, and needed a place to state such.
And for those of you entrepreneurial enough to stumble upon a passenger list at some later time/date, please do me the kind favor of stopping there and leaving me at peace over my statement here. That's why this is under "Secret Confessions" and not "What are you doing".

[EndOfTheEarth]

My mom lost her keys, wallet, and cell phone, and swallowed Delaware river water, none of which is a good thing. And I'm willing to bet my younger sister is traumatized (she's nine), so I don't know how that's going to affect her psyche. Beyond that, I think they're alright.

[RantingSidekick]

O.O
Woah...
-offers hug and comfort food-

[Secret Confessor]

You know what?

I am so tired of inviting myself to things because you "forgot" me.

I know you don't exactly hang out with me very often, but when you invite basically everyone but me I get tired of it.

If you don't like me, fucking tell me. That way I don't have to keep this delusion of us being friends.

Because I'm really tired of it and I'm tired of feeling like an idiot when I get asked by someone else I'm going.

[Devil's Sunrise]

Sorry. Love you.

[RantingSidekick]

Behh. You have so much right to be upset, I'm sorry. -cookie?-

[Hannah]

I just found out that my sister was anorexic all through college.

I hate my dad because it's his fault. I hate myself because I didn't even notice. I hate my father's father for making him like this.

I really hate confrontations. Emails over phone calls any day. *types like a maniac, deletes it all, re-types*

[RantingSidekick]

:C
-hugs-

[Secret Confessor]

>.br />
Okay, two people.
#1 is my boyfriend, and he's a great guy, but... lately he's been complaining CONSTANTLY. About how I don't tell him I love him enough, about how I'm always busy, about how I don't sacrifice enough to spend time with him. He's always criticizing me about things that are part of who I am, as a person. And I swear he never used to be this needy.

#2 is a guy who has been in and out of my life in varying degrees of complicatedness (word?) for years. It's a love/hate relationship on his part, and dislike/distrust/stubborn ignoring from me, with a pinch of repressed mutual attraction (that might or might not be why we're incapable of spending five minutes in a room without arguing). I don't trust him for countless reasons, but I really don't know what I'd do without him being there. Although he's been terrible to me in the past, he knows me better than almost anyone. I don't know how that happened. >.> He's smart, possibly smarter than me, which I don't like.
He thinks we ought to call a truce next school year, so we can work together on competitions, projects, etc., but there are several reasons why I think this is a bad idea. Firstly, we can't work together. Seriously, it's a recipe for endless arguments that no-one else understands. Secondly, I try to avoid him at all costs, because every time he comes into my life bad stuff happens. Thirdly, I'm going to be forced to spend enough time with him next year, since he's in three of my four classes, and the classes are seriously small. Fourthly, he seems to get off on making my life a misery, and even when he's being 'civil' he insults me pretty much the whole time.

So yeah. Just felt the need to write all that down somewhere. ._.

[Hannah]

So... I just thought I'd mention something here.

My family has been really great lately. No idea what the turning point was, but things are different.

My dad hasn't commented on my weight in years, and continues not to, my mom hasn't called me 'stupid' or anything of the sort in a month, I don't hate myself as much (or any other symptoms regarding my non-diagnosed depression), my mom and dad went out to an anniversary dinner (and told each other they /loved/ them. o.o), my brother and sister-in-law and nephews are most likely not leaving me for at least a few years, my constant fatigue might be curable, my sister wants me to come visit her, I realized that I rather enjoy being alone most of the time and don't need to have a bunch of friends that I hate, and He is going to college and will most likely never try to contact me or my friends ever again.

Basically, I'm doing well. Because I've posted so many posts, anonymous or not, stating the contrary, I really am doing well.

[Hannah]

*Hugs back* :D

[o0_flying high_0o]

:D

That's wonderful, hon. *hugs*