I don't really feel guilty, either -- I've spent a fuckload of time lately writing, and I... need a break from all that. x.x Plot is fun, the characters are enjoyable, but I think I need to spend a night not writing for once.
I know ^^ Lot's of chapters up over the last week/ few days. But yes, you've certainly earned a night off. That last chapter was just heartbreaking. You have absolutely no reason to feel guilty, and hell I'm sure after writing so much and not writing (well, not RC) for a long time before that, you could probably use a break to recharge...
...yeah, I think I might go bonkers if I have to write more in the vein of that last one right now ._. I'm planning to get some sort of Christmas fic with Ari together, but that's probably going to be about it for the moment.