Throne_Spaz's Blog – October 2009 Archive (3)

These storys are fake. Not real.

My day went totally wrong. Totally numb. Totally dead. I turned in all my assighments All of them. Didn't get in a fight. Didn't eat, didn't speak. Didn't even breath most of the time. I failed my assighment. The teacher was highly upset about it. She even said so. I wonder why. She also said it was highly disturbing. She read it to the whole class. I sat in silence and stared at the ceiling while they laughed. The teacher was so striken by it… Continue

My feet walk.The halls are crowded. To many people. To many voices. I try to stay calm. Not need to breakdown here. To many eyes, ears. I see my first period classroom. I don't consider it a classroom. Just a simple closet the janitor let me use to do my studying by my self. I open the door. The place was a mess. I cleaned it. The bell rings. I pick up my feet and go through the motions of the school. I get stares. Being gone for a year , that is, seems to get people to notice you. I crawl out… Continue

I think about sleeping, then the little fucked up side of me speaks in my brain and says with total determination," A little bit longer won't hurt you, you'll be fine ." I sigh and trust that the fucked up side of me knows what its saying (which I highly doubt it does, but still feel the need to trust it, its the only thing I can trust anymore). I stay up a little bit longer, just long enough to feel numb sensation of total and uter-exhaustion, I crawl to my bed in the hope of at least a few… Continue