Diaries of a Banned: Day Six

[Tash]

The idea was Doomy's, but it was such a damn brilliant idea I had to write my own...


I was banned on Thursday.
I was going to write this normally, but somehow it turned into a poem…

I’m desperately trying to keep,
In contact with my friends,
I’m furiously trying,
To tie off loose ends.

I’m back on MX,
I’m here on this site,
I’m talking to my friends,
But it doesn’t feel right.

I can’t be myself there,
I can’t speak freely anymore,
I’m still in banned exile,
I’m behind a closed door.

My words have lost their meaning,
My confidence has gone,
The fun isn’t there now,
Everything seems wrong.

I have to talk in whispers,
For fear I might be heard.
I have to hide in shadows,
My feelings now absurd…

I feel myself changing,
Something dear is lost,
I’m trying to be someone else,
But what will be the cost?

Will I be the same girl,
Who trusted and who cried?
Or will I be the monster,
Who hated and who lied?

I’m confused and I’m scared,
I don’t know what to do,
Should I keep on fighting?
Or should I risk losing you?

Tash
Xx

[Doomy]

*ClapClapClapClap*

Brava!

Jeez, I think that pretty much every long-term banned member feels that way :(

[Tash]

Thanks. *half smiles*

[Dontkillchic]

*backs up Doomy's opinion*

[Tash]

Hang on... Hanzy you haven't been banned.... o.O