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Welcome to the Secret Confessions thread. Beyond the pure anonymity of the internet, there lies a certain level of understanding behind all the accounts here on FF. The SC account carries burden of allowing the user to give a candid, private confession with (hopefully) understanding feedback. The SC thread is for other posters to give kind and/or helpful advice, words of empathy, or a secret of their own (under the SC name or not).

This account is a group account, and EVERYONE needs to treat it respectfully. By posting under the Secret Confessor, you are pledging to refrain from hate mail, "finger-pointing", insulting and being a jerkface. By posting in the SC thread, you are pledging to keep the comments respectful. This has not yet been a problem, but it's nice to have written down "just in case".

If you would like to use the SC account for ANY reason beside posting in this thread, please PM me- even if it's under the SC name (this is not to exert authority, but to maintain order over a very accessible account).

Thank you!


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I'm not continuing them. I haven't started them. It's just tempting. I am aware not destroying my life is preferable, and will attempt to continue not ruining everything.

That said, I'm not asking for advice. I'm just... venting, sort of. I use this mostly to vent. Then again, you probably have no idea who I am, and will be even less likely to be able to link it to any previous posts, so that's a really useless hint....
*offers tea*
*understands*

If talking to people you're close to doesn't help, maybe go immerse yourself in a book - get away from it all for a while. Or go wallow in FMLs.

Good luck, love.
Okay, I'll elaborate.

I'm scared. I hate change. I hate that people don't need my help anymore. I hate that I feel so worthless. I hate that I try to be an attention-whore. I hate that I have to do that sometimes. But I feel invisible. I'm on the outside looking in. I shut down. I push my feelings away just because I don't want to get hurt. I hate doing that. I know I just need to take a deep breath and relax but it's impossible. I'm never relaxed. I'm always so stressed. I want to know how to deal with it but I'm not sure I'm willing to let anybody help me. I don't want to change but I have to in order to stay sane. If I don't do something, I'm going to die. There's no way I can live like this.
I really do want to help you, but I'm just a fifteen year old weirdo who needs to un-fuck her own life before she screws up someone else's.

Perhaps you would benefit from counseling? Is that out of the range of possibilities?
I'm done with counseling.
It didn't help?
No.
I'm not surprised, really. You're so awfully stubborn. v.v

Sorry, I'm being rather insensitive...
I know.

Eh, you're not. Don't worry about it anyway.
It's okay to be scared. God, life sometimes leaves me feeling completely terrified. And, while people may not need your help as such, sometimes they still need you, more than you can know.

Often people don't know whether they should make the first move, they don't mind you drawing attention to yourself when you need it, it's very good that you're able to, actually. I know it's no fun feeling invisible, or like you're on the outside, love, but, we see you. You're a part of my heart, and the hearts of many others. I know knowing that doesn't necessarily make it all better, but, we don't see you as on the outside, hon.

Taking a deep breath and relaxing is actually another way of pushing your feelings away, but the aim is to disperse them rather than bundle them up. I don't know how to help you relax, though, hon. Music, books, art, anything like that? Some outlet of some sort, that you can access without causing harm to yourself or others?

I think you gave up on the counsellor too soon, love. Everything takes time, there isn't just a quick fix. They might've been able to help you with this, eventually.

Change can also come gradually. You're not going to die, hon. You can live. Maybe not like this, but, it won't always be like this.
Negative traits that I possess:

3. An extreme need for approval and to fit in.

3. A phobia of other people.

3. Self hatred like you wouldn't believe.

3. I give money to charities.
:DDD for the last one.

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