Secret Confessions

[Doomy]

[Edited Because I Fracking Can]

Welcome to the Secret Confessions thread. Beyond the pure anonymity of the internet, there lies a certain level of understanding behind all the accounts here on FF. The SC account carries burden of allowing the user to give a candid, private confession with (hopefully) understanding feedback. The SC thread is for other posters to give kind and/or helpful advice, words of empathy, or a secret of their own (under the SC name or not).

This account is a group account, and EVERYONE needs to treat it respectfully. By posting under the Secret Confessor, you are pledging to refrain from hate mail, "finger-pointing", insulting and being a jerkface. By posting in the SC thread, you are pledging to keep the comments respectful. This has not yet been a problem, but it's nice to have written down "just in case".

If you would like to use the SC account for ANY reason beside posting in this thread, please PM me- even if it's under the SC name (this is not to exert authority, but to maintain order over a very accessible account).

Thank you!


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[Doomy]

Confession?

You're nothing special. Don't run to me, complaining that you're life is terrible. Sure, I believe you when you say you're insecure. I believe that you really are sad. And yes, I feel bad about that.

But you DON'T want any perspective.
You DON'T want me to help.

You claim that I should just ask you what's wrong when you, so I do. Then, I try and help you with your problems. But NO. You don't want my help, you're not a "case", you're too damn special to be a diagnosis. You're not fine, but you're fine enough where any help is a sign of weakness, and you can't damn well have that.

So, no, you're not special. You say that your life has no purpose, but you're fif-fucking-teen. If you want to be the adult you claim to be, stop the bullshit and either admit you have problems or admit you're hinting at them for the attention. You're acting like a hypocrite, and you're patronizing me to feel better about yourself. Just stop it, it's hurtful. Not to mention pathetic, because you're so damn transparent.

Yes, you have a fucking "case". A case of teenage angst. And while some people can tolerate it, I don't want to be the one to feed your ego.

[Secret Confessor]

I hate myself.

Why?
1. I'm a stubborn-ass teen who always wants to be right.
2. I'm an shounen-ai loving freak who can't be like others.
3. I'm 'no fun' as many people put it-- I'd rather be at home with some hot chocolate and talking online than be outside flirting with boys.
4. I'm too old for my own good-- I talk like I'm better than everybody.
5. I annoy people. So damn much.
6. I'm afraid of things that I shouldn't be afraid of.
7. I'm a retard when it comes to common sense. Everything else? I'm a freaking genius.
8. I am a self-centered prick who will do anything to get attention.
9. I'm a selfish git who won't give up anything for others.
10. I waste my money on stupid things like manga and stuff I don't use/wear rather than things I actually use/wear.
11. I complain. A lot.
12. I'm the biggest pessimist anybody will ever meet. I can't, just can't, see the good things in stuff.
13. I'm a coward who can't stand up for herself.

I hate myself. Half of the people I 'know' hate me, too.

I have nobody to go to, either.

Nobody.

[Hannah]

I have most of the same negative character traits as you do. I think you'd be surprised how many people do. Here's the test: can you list your positive ones? And don't you dare refuse because you know they're there.

If you want to stay home with hot chocolate, do it, dammit. It makes you happy. And teens live for attention, in my opinion. Anyone big enough to admit it is a step above half the people I know. And you don't have "no one" to go to, because you have me, and anyone else here.

[Secret Confessor]

I had in my mind that if I could just hold on till x time, everything would be fine.

That deadline passed, and it's not all fine.

I don't mean perfect. It's just... it's been so long since I've been happy. I wanted to feel that feeling again. And not feel constantly like I ought to just shrink in on myself, make myself as little as possible, ideally just disappear altogether.

And now, that moment I was holding out for has come and gone. My patience is wearing thin. I feel as if.... I don't even know. But it's horrible and painful and I just need it to end already.

[Lamp Post]

*offers tea*
*understands* *same*
*made a new 'everything will be better by' date, though*

[Secret Confessor]

I'm scared that I either have some kind of mental disorder, or I'm a sociopath. Or both.

[Dual]

:D

Don't worry. It's completely natural.

Er, to think that, that is. Not to be a mentally disordered sociopath.

[Megan (Fishy)]

I'm sure you're fine, but there's no shame in seeing a doctor and/or therapist.

And you can always talk to us. :D

Just don't self-diagnose... reading the 'symptoms' online, you can make yourself believe you have everything.

[Lamp Post]

It'd prolly be best to just stay clear of WebMD. You'll find a million things you'll think you will have.

[Megan (Fishy)]

To be concise...

Whoever's abusing the SC account needs to fucking stop it. Grow up and use your own, or hell, make a fake account. Just stop bugging me/us with the SC, that's not what it's for.

[Lamp Post]

Is it that one chick again?

[Megan (Fishy)]

Yes. x.x

She really wants you to log into chat, by the way...