I wont eat in front of people and every time I enter my house and see the coat wrack I think for a split second it's a very tall man who's going to murder me.
I'm afraid to be around people who like me because they might expect to much from me, and I expect anyone who really knows me hates me. I'm afraid that people are watching me all of the time so I'm always looking out behind me. When the phone rings while I'm home alone I expect it to be a rapist or a killer coming to get me. I can't leave my Bathroom door open because I'm afraid my cat will drown in the tub (that has no water in it). Believe me, my paranoia is annoying even to me, buit even though I know it's ridiculous, It still scares me.
I get annoyed with my own paranoia, which makes me even more paranoid, because then I think I'm annoying other people, which will make them hate me. I love hatemail from people I don't like, or don't know well. But friends hating me is pretty much right up there for "worst fear."
*same*
I thought she was like re-coding the system or something..... well, not that complex. It's been rated at up to a decade for even world class hackers to completely hack admin of any readily available OS, and by then it'd be obsolete anyway.... *rambles on*
I..... may or may not have done a little research on it two summers ago. *wonders where you got lost* *was speaking English.... nerdy English, but still English*
Everyone finds it terribly funny when I go off like that IRL. I get really into it, apparently, like a normal person ranting about her annoying friend, or bitchy parents? According to others, I get that involved in my techie rants. *shrugs*