But, I tell people here more than any RL friends, and as you know, I tell you more than I tell people in general here. Fate, and Pyro, too, but.... Yeah. I pretty much tell you more than anyone. *doesn't tell people IRL very much*
I do that to real life people from time to time. Five days ago I was sitting with this girl on a park bench, on my birthday nonetheless, summarizing all of my life's woes. I felt a lot better afterword. It's funny, I barely know her.
It's habit, for me to avoid questions. Didn't we too, go over this months ago? I'm not used to people asking me questions in passing, etc, and actually expecting an answer, especially if there's sufficient conversation going. Same thing, really, only that feeling of not needing to share really comes back when something's wrong. Because, I mean, that mentality of 'Why do they want to know', 'this won't help anything', and 'not like they care/I don't need to burden them', comes back. v.v
XD But you always answer things with saying that you don't want to talk about it, so I try to respect that.
Uh, I pretty much always want to know. And I always care. Just saying.
We did. And I can understand that mentality, except I get it after the fact, which really sucks, because I'll tell somebody everything, and then thing "Now why did I do that? I didn't need to burden them with that, they didn't really care, they were just asking to be nice," and then the whole "I'm such a bitch I didn't need to tell them all that they have no reason to want to listen I need to go die now." And then I beat myself up for telling somebody something.
*knows*
Usually I'm on autopilot, and a just an answer I give everyone without thinking, too. Seriously, just yell at me and push the subject. At least until I realize that I'm an idiot, and than nothing's really wrong.
There probably is something really wrong, then, but by that point, I'm being so stubborn you'll just be wasting your time. . . .not that you aren't by talking to me already.
I'm wasting my time by talking to you? Yes, you're right, I should be doing more important things, like staring at the wall and wallowing in the fact that I don't have a life.